And this year I'm going to do something brave
I guess it started with a conversation...
I write this post because I recently had a conversation with someone who said to me ..
Bree I have a weird question for you and you dont have to answer it if you dont want to..
I heard you have a wig?... awkward silence...
I kindve smile..going through my usual schpiell when she adds....
How are you still so confident? Does it make you sad you dont have hair?
To be honest It kind've took me off guard, maybe because I've dealt with this my whole life that it dosn't really phase me as much anymore, Trust me there were some rough moments in Jr High and highschool, where I just wanted a ponytail so badly or an updo to prom. Before we knew about the wigs and extensions I struggled inside with the thought could anyone love me like this. But it got easier...I evolved..I grew...I relied on the lord.
So I thought for a while after I got home and I really started to think about the question.
How am I confident without hair?
And after a while I decided...I have to thank my mother. Who always said I was beautiful who told me I could do anything. And who reminded me every day that it was my spirit and brain I should try to make the most beautiful. Because thats what we take with us to heaven. I thank her for cultivating my talents and having her help me focus on what I was awesome at. And I thank my heavenly father with blessing me with those gifts, especially my voice. Singing and Dancing got me through some tough things.
My trial made me look at others with maybe what people would see as outward imperfections differently. I thought about their story their personal struggles. What it would be like to be in their shoes. And I still think this way today. And for that I am greatful I have no hair. I feel like I was given different eyes to make up for my lack of locks.
I think every single one of us has body issues and self esteem issues. But I think having no hair has had to make me learn to love myself for Who and what my spirit is. For those of you who remember one of my previous posts..I won a photoshoot in august with a photographer in utah haya papaya. And I debated doing the shoot without my wig. After talking with this woman and having the greatest conversation. I've decided I'm going to go wigless :). To show every woman out there that they are beautiful. For girls with tritrichlomania or alopecia that they don't have to hide from the world, that there are many options, you can dance you can swim with a wig, they have this amazing tape stuff that works wonders.. or you dont have to wear one...at all..and most importantly that you don't have to be scared of who you really are...because there are people out there that will love you for what you are inside and how your trials have made you stronger. So love yourself now..life is to short to hate your body. Be greatful for what it can do.
So tell me... why are you beautiful I'd really love to hear?
I have never met you but I love reading your blog. You seem such a sweet women thank you for sharing such a personal thing, you are an inspiration. I look forward to seeing the pictures.
ReplyDeleteBree this goes along so perfectly with the beauty conversation we have been having after my beautiful women photo shoot. Kim Layton has started a conversation on her blog where she is sharing the story behind the women. You should check it out, you fit right in! We all have a story.
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Thanks for opening up. You are so beautiful and creative and fun! I can't wait to see your photo shoot! Your gonna be wonderful!
BEST POST EVER. I always thought you were beautiful, all through high school. Your smile far outweighed the lack of hair and I always admired and looked up to you for your amazing personality. You go girl!
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Lindsey
First of all, as someone who went through Jr. High and High school I can attest to the fact that you have ALWAYS been beautiful inside and out. Your smile can light up a room and your eyes literally sparkle, no joke.
ReplyDeleteHaving a second baby has really done a number on my body. I have stretch marks all over and I just know it will never be the same. I've had to really remind myself that I have a body that works perfectly even if it doesn't look perfect (swimsuit shopping yesterday all day really did a number on my self esteem lol) and that I can run and have babies and function on a daily basis which is a huge blessing.
I think my compassion makes me beautiful. I have a lot of empathy and compassion for people.
I am so excited you won! I had a blast voting for you!!!! And its true, your eyes and your smile seriously light up a room! You are so gifted in so many ways and I cannot tell you how excited I was as a Jr. to have you be the one to 'kidnap' me for Chamber initiation and to help me in my sight reading audition-you are AMAZING and like an older sister to me! Thank you for being beautiful you!
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