Wednesday, November 25, 2009

30 weeks...

This is more just to remember what I felt like at this time so I'm sorry if it's not my perkiest.
I'm officially thinkin pink. I'm getting excited to get her room ready. We bought the boys big boy beds for christmas- but I can't set them up yet. I'm sad that I feel like my babies arn't babies anymore. Where did the time go. Brandon and I looked at pictures yesterday and I couldn't believe how much they had changed in a year.
Today.... I feel huge,white and I'm tired. I'm uncomfortable. I can't sleep anymore without waking up a couple times during the night. Just uncomfy and irritated.
I can't believe It's the 3d trimester. This pregnancy has been so much faster than with the boys. And for that I'm greatful. I have a bond with her already thats pretty intense something that was harder with the boys. Maybe trying to realize that Id have two to split my love between was a hard concept to grasp. It's been easier to bond this time.
I'm starting to finally feel like it's real this week. I just can't get over how tired I am. Maybe because I have 2 toddlers- I really am starting to freak out that in 10 more mondays I'll have a daughter. And 3 kids under 2. I hope I can do it. I'm not going to lie- I'm a little nervous.
But It's almost December!- all I need is january and a week and a half! And my body is back.
I'm not a very good pregnant person. I find it awkward and uncomfortable.
Hats off to you ladies that do it so gracefully.

It's weird thinking this might be my last pregnancy. And I'm 23. So I'm trying to enjoy it. It's defiantly different than the boys was. I can feel her move more. I can eat a meal without having to stop every 10 minutes and wait. I don't sleep in the tub.- Still in the tub lots but not 24/7. I compare everything to twin milestones- or think ahh triplets are born at 33 weeks twins at 36- maybe she'll be early. Hopefully no nicu this time around.

I see my OB Dr next week to see what he thinks about a v-bac or another c section. This is the same Dr. that saw me with the boys. I'm fine with either way. Is it weird I'm indifferent? I guess all I care about is that she gets here and we're both ok.
Brandon and I picked a name. We love it. It feels super special to us. We want to double check though that it fits her the right way when we see her. I'm getting excited. And I'm so curious as to what she'll look like. More like Greyson or more like Harrison.



  1. Bree! That's so exciting you're having a girl! I had no idea! I'm due Dec 25 if you can believe the awesome timing on that one!! And we're having a girl too! Congratulations!
    Fern :)

  2. My goodness, please don't ever think that you're alone with not having a "graceful" pregnancy. I think you do everything gracefully, but I'm pretty sure no one feels that way about themselves. I can't believe that you're going to have 3 kids under 2. Good luck. That's so hard, but SO work it. The kids are SO much closer in the long run.
    I was totally indifferent with a VBAC vs C-Section. The only reason I chose a VBAC was to see if I could do it. I LOVED having a C-section, but the recovery is really drawn out (as you know). Anyway, good luck with it all. Hope things go well for you!

  3. Pregnancy and graceful don't belong in the same sentence lol. I do think it is important however to find joy through pregnancy. My best friend tried for a long time to get pregant to no avail. Her boss was pregant and always complaining about it to her. Finally she spoke up and said "at least you get the pleasure of creating and bringing a child into the world." Since I was pregant and talked to her everyday I decided I would never complain about pregnancy. Now she is FINALLY pregnant and finding so much joy in ever aspect. Remember they are never back inside you and each step is an amazing process.

    Pretty crazy this could be your last pregnancy! You are going to be an empty nester by the time you are 41! Oh except that we will NEVER be 41 lol I'm trying to prevent that~

  4. I heart you! And whatever she looks like she'll be beautimous haha! And don't you worry I am here to help with my two little men! Love yas!

  5. I hear you on the pregnancy not so much fun thing. I'm excited to have a baby but the pregnancy period doesn't like me very much. I'm trying to do better this time. You are the women though you really can do it and you are going to have so much fun! I can't wait to see what she looks like and hear her sweet name! I can't believe you are so close to being done! That was super fast! I heart you!