Wednesday, February 2, 2011

minute by minute

This week I've found myself getting by minute by minute
when it hurts too much I try to breathe and just tell myself to make it to the next minute
Not sure Why I'm taking it so hard..I guess I just feel deeply 
I hope the feeling deeply will happen when I need to teach him everything 
he's missed the past 2 years in a new way

But in those minutes I have had things that have  made me happy
which last week I wasn't sure If I would feel again
so here are some moments of laughter and bliss through the week of heck

1. Greyson coming up to me while I'm drinking a diet coke and shaking his finger at me and saying no no mamma.. grandmas coke!
2. Getting chocolate shakes from Mcdonalds
3. Harrison waking greyson up from a nap to give him his balloon
4. Meeting a new friend even if it's through crazy circumstances I already feel a deep love for her.
5. Forehead kisses when Brandon leaves in the wee hours of the morning. And follow up e-mails to check in on me...What a man right. I know ...he's strong and wonderful. All mine.
6. getting a cd of images from the fab tamiz... photographer in hawaii with some pictures of my hair pieces. I love seeing photos of creative work it never gets old. 
Maybe thats what I'm supposed to be.... a photographer.. won't lie that it's my secret dream
7. sunshine it gives me hope that it will all be ok someday
8. netflix..thank you netflix for Leverage.. a good laugh is something I've needed the most
9. knowing my family will be here saturday.. can it please come now!
10. coco and I had a fashion session we tried on her birthday outfit without anyone knowing it was fun.



  1. Dear sweet Bree, You are such a strong and admirable woman! I wish there was something I could do or say to lighten your load. All I know is Heavenly Father blesses us with bumps on our journey in order to make us stronger...especially his amazingly strong children like you. Thank you for being such a positive example in my life. Our prayers are with you and I know I live forever away but let me know if there is anything I can do to help in any way. Much love!

  2. Sometimes I wonder what people mean when they say things like "at some point in your life you'll look back at these times with fondness" because let's be honest, sometimes it's hard and it sucks. And I don't want to be insensitive to anyone's situations (but this is funny and might help) today, Steve decided to turn on that annoying bird dance song that people play at weddings and all of a sudden we are doing the most ridiculous dance and the girls loved it and that was my piece of "bliss" in an otherwise un-blissful day. I never thought such a cruddy day could bring a moment quite that joyful, keep focusing on those moments Bree and remember you have all the tools you need to get through this, Heavenly Father wouldn't have trusted you with something so heavy and not given you the ability to carry the burden or to have others help shoulder the weight when you need it :)

  3. I'm glad you can find minutes of happiness is this time of turmoil. I wish you many many more moments of happiness to come. Have a wonderful time with your family!