Dear sweet Bree, You are such a strong and admirable woman! I wish there was something I could do or say to lighten your load. All I know is Heavenly Father blesses us with bumps on our journey in order to make us stronger...especially his amazingly strong children like you. Thank you for being such a positive example in my life. Our prayers are with you and I know I live forever away but let me know if there is anything I can do to help in any way. Much love!
Sometimes I wonder what people mean when they say things like "at some point in your life you'll look back at these times with fondness" because let's be honest, sometimes it's hard and it sucks. And I don't want to be insensitive to anyone's situations (but this is funny and might help) today, Steve decided to turn on that annoying bird dance song that people play at weddings and all of a sudden we are doing the most ridiculous dance and the girls loved it and that was my piece of "bliss" in an otherwise un-blissful day. I never thought such a cruddy day could bring a moment quite that joyful, keep focusing on those moments Bree and remember you have all the tools you need to get through this, Heavenly Father wouldn't have trusted you with something so heavy and not given you the ability to carry the burden or to have others help shoulder the weight when you need it :)
I'm glad you can find minutes of happiness is this time of turmoil. I wish you many many more moments of happiness to come. Have a wonderful time with your family!