one month

We made it a month from diagnosis day..and I'm still alivelife goes on

Just had an overwhelming feeling to thank every single person who has prayed for Harrison and for me and Brandon. As cheesy as it sounds.. I can feel when people pray for us. I feel warmth and almost a blanket of love in my home. And I thank you so much for doing so. I needed that overwhelming peace to come to me. Thank you for meals -getting me out of the house-ice cream muffins..gluten free stuff. I'm truly overwhelmed and my heart is ready to burst with grattitude for the love of others. We  hope we can repay everyone some day. I've learned a lot this month about acceptance and hope. and myself..and when I figure out what I want to say about it I'll let you know.
I'm still very tender but getting stronger.. because my son is getting strongerand as someone sent me a message this week I was reminded of the persepctive I have in life saying that we're the lucky ones because we'll get to see miracles happen in our home every day...
That hit me like a ton of bricks.. because it's already happening.I have a testimony of christ and that he heals..and of service and how small acts of kindness go so far.That I know my prayers have been answered through others the past month.
Thank you so much I love you all. Harrison loves you too :) Thanks for being our cheerleaders when we needed them
Oh and Don't you just love my sons choice in shoes?

I had a truly blissful day

I'm so glad I found and married him. He's one in a million and I wake up every day still as in love with him as when we were dating- as cheesy as that may sound it's true. He's a wonderful person.

Example 1-He let me sleep in- he does this a lot on saturdays because he knows how stressful the boys can be for me while I'm pregnant and how much I love to sleep in sometimes and saturdays are the only day thats an option so he'll take them from 7-9- It's like heaven he'll change them get them breakfast and I don't have to worry about a thing and.....as if that wasn't enough today I hear the door open he's holding smiley Greyson in his arms and a plate with toast and jam and some hot chocolate- just for me!-wanted to wake me up and make me smile- Needless to say it made my whole month having him think of me. How selfless. His smile when he woke me up was priceless.

Example 2-We're up for about an hour and decide its time to shower so we start heading to the bathroom and Greyson starts to cry- I shrug it off and go how do you think I shower every day? He goes ohh Bree he has big tears-and proceeds to go play with him. Wow- what a guy- how selfish am I?

k and again I get out of the shower and what do I hear- Him singing ring around the rosies holding both boys hands and listening to them giggle. He's learned lots from nursery! My heart was officially melted by then. So I go join in and we sing songs for about an hour with the boys in our room- they really like london bridges and sleeping bunnies- it was such a happy moment for me and made my home feel so full of love.

Example 3- we went on a date tonight and he let me get popcorn and a cup full of ice- I'm pretty iron deficient and I can't get enough ice- and he deals with me chewing on it incessantly. In fact just laughs at my weird hormonal issues. I love that he loves to feel her. I can tell when he starts to get excited about having a new little one around- it dosn't hit him until I'm about ready to pop. But it's fun to see his eyes light up with excitement. He took the day off on Tuesday so I can go get a massage to help my neck and legs feel better. When he did that last time I was pregnant with the boys I bawled because it felt so good and I got to lay on my stomach because they have a hole in the table. I'm a stomach sleeper so the last month is hard on me because I can't sleep very well- can you tell I'm up blogging at 1:40 am.

All in all I'm just grateful for his love for me- that we're still super tight after five years- that we just get each other so well- and it just continues to get better. He makes me laugh- makes me feel so loved and I just love and adore my Johnson.